You know what my favorite thing about the outstretched hands moment in Reichenbach is?

That they’re not actually reaching for each other in context.

The actual context of their hands is that Sherlock is putting his hand out saying don’t come any closer, stay where you are, a halting gesture, and John is putting his up in placation, hands in the air where Sherlock can see them, alright, stay calm, no sudden movements, I promise. That’s the actual context of their hands being up and out.

But the subtext of the scene is so viscerally the opposite, conveyed in the tightness of the shots, the emotional freneticism of the hand-held camera struggling to focus and constantly shifting. The slight lingering in the moment, their fingers outstretched, suspended in the air and framed in such a way that superimposed they would be just barely touching. And worst of all, the fact that the shots are switched in order of cause and effect, John’s hand seen up before Sherlock’s is seen out, confusing the audience for a moment before context settles—for one brief second where, to their eye, Sherlock actually is merely reaching out for that ghost of a touch.

It’s that as every bit of their expressed actions state stay away and I will if you want me to, every bit of the implicit nature of the scene is undermining that and crying out, no, no, I want you with me, don’t go away. My favorite thing is that they’re not actually reaching for each other with their hands, but the show wants us to know that they’re reaching out, somehow, with everything else that they are.

Basically, Sherlock is a brilliantly filmed series, and it should get all the awards.

A rush and a push and the land is ours

Aha, I found it. I think it’s from January of last year? Re-reading this, I’ve realized that I should never attempt to get into Sherlock’s headspace. It accesses every pretentious neuron in my brain and fires them all at once. For the evidence, see the title above, which is what I actually named the original text file.

Sherlock Holmes hates adrenaline rushes.

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“I’ve always assumed love was a dangerous disadvantage. Thank you for the final proof.”

Can we talk about how weird this moral was. Like, even from a non-fannish perspective. Because it was really weird. For one thing, the whole point of book!Irene is that she proves that love isn’t a disadvantage, that real love—true unselfish human connection—is something that’s worth protection and struggle, that it elevates people from the pettiness of the criminal world that Sherlock Holmes studies and operates within. And really, that’s also the whole point of the episode, too, isn’t it? With Molly and Mrs. Hudson and, of course, John? It’s only Mycroft playing the other side in this episode (well, and Moriarty, in a vague way). He’s the one who explicitly tells Sherlock it’s a disadvantage, that continues the rant from Moriarty in TGG trying to convince Sherlock that feelings are weaknesses that can and must be put/burned away.

Which is why I find this whole exchange between Sherlock and Irene in front of Mycroft highly suspicious. The whole point of Sherlock is that he isn’t Mycroft and he isn’t Moriarty, that he’ll always choose to remain at least tentatively connected to humanity, that he has a heart, as obscured and mechanized as it is. And the fact that he goes and helps Irene in the end shows as much as anything that Sherlock chooses to continue to care about her, about humanity, about caring itself.

So Sherlock playing up a Mycroft-y moral in this scene read as highly suspicious to me, and makes me desperately want a fic (or you know, a canon follow up) where this was all a clever ruse between Irene and Sherlock to trick Mycroft into thinking they’d broken from each other, because that’s the point of the end, isn’t it? That Mycroft needed to believe Sherlock is trustworthy and Irene is dead? And the tell that lets Irene into the play is the thing about her pulse and pupils, because that never happened, because they aren’t attracted to each other that way, because Irene is gay and Sherlock is Sherlock, but Mycroft seems incapable of seeing how they can care about one another without there being a sexual element. But they, more than Moriarty or Mycroft, are each other’s match because they’re so goddamn clever, and the rest of the world is so hilariously, depressingly not, and somehow there’s still an acknowledged part of them that cares about that world and its lives and its infinite capacity for expressing its humanity. Sherlock helps Irene escape her danger because they are kindred spirits, and even if they never speak again, it would be good just to know someone who was really, truly like him existed, no matter what side of the law or the gender divide they existed on.

I wholly admit that this is not likely to become canonical, and definitely does not change the problematic narrative arc of Irene’s character as it is presented in the episode, but in my personal headcanon, this is what happened, and it helps me sleep at night.

More thoughts about Irene Adler and her role in A Scandal In Belgravia

The minute the phrase “damsel-in-distress” got tossed out, I groaned and put my head in my hands because I put the pieces together and knew what was coming. If the point of the episode had carried the point from the original story (that Irene Adler knows how to play the game of hearts and win), or even if perhaps they carried the pre-twist point of the episode (that she knows how to play the game of hearts, and Sherlock got played, son), that would have been fine. Either of those endings would have worked for me with no problems and perhaps even a small amount of applause. But when Mycroft said she’d played the damsel-in-distress, I saw from 800 miles away that the show would make her one eventually, in karmic retribution for her attempt to manipulate that trope to her own selfish, unsavory purposes. Because how DARE a woman play on a man’s gentler, protective impulses? How dare she hurt the beloved Sherlock Holmes, access his one point of vulnerability and use it to efficiently and ruthlessly manipulate him? That kind of amoral victory Must Not Stand. Because god forbid a woman be capable of emotional detachment (especially when the man has already proven himself emotionally attached, even as abstractly as Sherlock did). And God FORBID a woman come out on top and refuse to apologize for it. She must be brought to her knees, made to beg, preferably both.

(And seriously who else noticed that she said she’d love to make him beg for mercy twice and then it was her at his mercy, twice, in the end. Because even the threat of her sexual potency must be countered and negated. AAAAGHH.)

And here I’m more confused, but WHY couldn’t she actually be gay if she said she was? From a fandom perspective, I can justify it as sexual fluidity, and might even like doing so since it reflects back on John, too (he’s not gay, and she is, but the implicit confession is that they’re both somehow in love with Sherlock, etc, etc, I found myself OT3ing them HARD, lol). But I seriously don’t like what the show itself did with it. Either she DOES consider herself gay and discovers she’s sexually fluid, and that kind of sucks because it’s just used to set up the twist that she’s ~fallen~ for Sherlock (with so many meanings there, siiiiigh), neatly negating her alternate sexuality. Because, you know, in the end she is just the ~strong~ ~Othered~ woman who finally succumbs to her love of the male protagonist, assimilating her into society’s heteronormative expectations, and thus making her worthy of the audience’s acceptance/emotional investment. Or she was lying about her orientation to protect herself, and that lie is summarily stripped from her, rendering her and her narrative position powerless in the face of the male intellects she’d been trying to pit herself against and protect herself from.

Either way, those results are diametrically opposed to her canonical narrative (where she’s smart and calculating and still feels compassion and love and still WINS), and a shitty turn in just about every way—for the character, for the writers, and for supporters of female characters everywhere.

In more succinct words: nooo, I wanted the opposite of this. ;_;

TRAVELING SO LIGHT // a Jack/Ianto fanmix / prompted by @decisions-and-revisions
Transliterator - DeVotchKa - Early days, facades, TorchwoodLet’s begin at the beginning / Let us revisit the past / Like when the houselights start dimming / In silver screen photograph / …We’ll go swimming in libations / Forgive unexplained lacerations / These otherworldly manifestations / We can all live in the breath you are wasting / You better mean what you say / Why don’t you say what you mean / I never get anywhere / I get the space in between
Nothing & Nowhere - Emily Haines & The Soft Skeleton - Their rhythm, emptiness, Torchwood Been traveling so light / When we’re floating by / It seems nothing and nowhere is golden / Some say we’re lost in space / Some say we’re fallin’ off the page / Some say our life is insane / But it isn’t insane on paper / Playgrounds are graveyards / And all of our scars are permanent, permanent / There’s no replacement for places /  I’ll always love you, you’re mine / Numb is the new high / All memories die out ‘till nothing and nowhere is golden
Desire On Repeat - Vedera - The physical aspect, hesitancyIt’s all the same / Sex in the air / Your promise is all the same / You’ll be the one who’ll always care / But how can you promise the world? / How can you promise your heart when it’s always searching? / But I’m just like you / I don’t want to deny my heart its chance to feel / I don’t want to deny my soul something real / …Is there anything left in this world that will satisfy you and me? / …Disrupt the part of me that needs some space / Repeat that look I see in your face / Remind me of truth / Remind me of the reason for existing
Gorecki - Jay (?) - Ianto’s feelings, CoE, bitter ironyIf I should die this very moment / I wouldn’t fear / For I’ve never known completeness / Like being here / Wrapped in the warmth of you / Loving every breath of you / Still my heart this moment / Oh, it might burst /…All I’ve known / All I’ve done / All I’ve felt was leading to this / Wanna stay right here / ‘Till the end of time, ‘till the earth stops turning / Gonna love you till the seas run dry / I’ve found the one I’ve waited for
Love Like A Sunset - Phoenix - Jack of CoE, watching him goHere comes, a visible horizon / Right where it starts and ends / Oh, and then we start the end / Here comes, a visible illusion / Oh, where it starts and ends / You’re like a sunset
Love Is Only A Feeling - The Darkness - Jack after, even more bitter ironyThe state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved / I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted, and I truly believed / That the light of my life / Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by / Just to beam on you and I / Love is only a feeling / (Drifting away) / When I’m in your arms I start believing / (It’s here to stay) / But love is only a feeling / Anyway
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TRAVELING SO LIGHT // a Jack/Ianto fanmix / prompted by @decisions-and-revisions

  1. Transliterator - DeVotchKa - Early days, facades, Torchwood
    Let’s begin at the beginning / Let us revisit the past / Like when the houselights start dimming / In silver screen photograph / …We’ll go swimming in libations / Forgive unexplained lacerations / These otherworldly manifestations / We can all live in the breath you are wasting / You better mean what you say / Why don’t you say what you mean / I never get anywhere / I get the space in between
  2. Nothing & Nowhere - Emily Haines & The Soft Skeleton - Their rhythm, emptiness, Torchwood
    Been traveling so light / When we’re floating by / It seems nothing and nowhere is golden / Some say we’re lost in space / Some say we’re fallin’ off the page / Some say our life is insane / But it isn’t insane on paper / Playgrounds are graveyards / And all of our scars are permanent, permanent / There’s no replacement for places / I’ll always love you, you’re mine / Numb is the new high / All memories die out ‘till nothing and nowhere is golden
  3. Desire On Repeat - Vedera - The physical aspect, hesitancy
    It’s all the same / Sex in the air / Your promise is all the same / You’ll be the one who’ll always care / But how can you promise the world? / How can you promise your heart when it’s always searching? / But I’m just like you / I don’t want to deny my heart its chance to feel / I don’t want to deny my soul something real / …Is there anything left in this world that will satisfy you and me? / …Disrupt the part of me that needs some space / Repeat that look I see in your face / Remind me of truth / Remind me of the reason for existing
  4. Gorecki - Jay (?) - Ianto’s feelings, CoE, bitter irony
    If I should die this very moment / I wouldn’t fear / For I’ve never known completeness / Like being here / Wrapped in the warmth of you / Loving every breath of you / Still my heart this moment / Oh, it might burst /…All I’ve known / All I’ve done / All I’ve felt was leading to this / Wanna stay right here / ‘Till the end of time, ‘till the earth stops turning / Gonna love you till the seas run dry / I’ve found the one I’ve waited for
  5. Love Like A Sunset - Phoenix - Jack of CoE, watching him go
    Here comes, a visible horizon / Right where it starts and ends / Oh, and then we start the end / Here comes, a visible illusion / Oh, where it starts and ends / You’re like a sunset
  6. Love Is Only A Feeling - The Darkness - Jack after, even more bitter irony
    The state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved / I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted, and I truly believed / That the light of my life / Would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by / Just to beam on you and I / Love is only a feeling / (Drifting away) / When I’m in your arms I start believing / (It’s here to stay) / But love is only a feeling / Anyway

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Anons gotta stop leaving me asks while I’m asleep.

I read them in my inbox when I wake up, mull them over while I eat breakfast, and then come back and VOMIT ALL THE WORDS IN EXISTENCE into these poor unsuspecting text boxes. Anyway, this anon asked:

First of all, thank you for the compliment. Second of all, if you realize what you’ve gotten yourself into with me, anon, feel free to follow me through this read more and hear my long-winded explanation about how I completely agree with you up to a point, but appear to approach the problems Kurt and Blaine exhibit in that series from a different perspective than you.

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